I Only Wonder...
A different grief fills my soul tonight.
I stare at the endless sea of stars glimmering brilliantly in the cold night sky and wonder...
I do not ask why; I only wonder...
I wonder how God forms us out of nothing, into a masterpiece.
I wonder at the frailty of the human mind encountering the evils of this world.
I wonder...
I wonder at the beauty I still find in the midst of such still grief.
I wonder how God could possibly use these horrific things for good.
I wonder as I look at my own solemn reflection; do my eyes tell the mysteries revealed to me in the darkness of my night?
I wonder...
I wonder how I will let go of a child that was never really mine.
I wonder if I have any right to feel anger of things I cannot comprehend.
I wonder...
I wonder how many will God call to love the outcasts, the loveless, the destitute of soul?
I wonder at how few will ever leave the illusion of their own comfort and desire for a problem and pain free life -- to risk everything to love.
I wonder...
I wonder how I can sit here now before the throne of God and thank Him for my sorrow, my trials, my pain.
I wonder...
I wonder why I ever thought this life was about me at all!
Posted by Crystal on November 16, 2007 at 1:26PM.
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